could you believe that things are actually going downhill since my birthday? suddenly everyone stopped talking to me and bad lucks followed.

this year’s birthday is by far the worst because only very few people could remember it. and the day after, let’s just say i had hugeload of bad luck at work and at home. everything really went downhill since february 16th. these past months and going, were just really bad. and i just can’t give a fuck over anything anymore. and this has been really frustrating because i have to face it alone and it’s neverending.


and none tries to understand.

sometimes i just feel bad for being myself and try to follow what people want but at the end they reject me again so gtfo.

yes i’m insecure. so what? it’s so human. i never try to belittle my own emotion because it demands to be felt. who am i to reject myself?

can i be content when the only one who loves me is my own self?

but whatever. i’m not made to be rejected, ignored, and laugh at, just because you feel like having more authorities upon me. your attitude suck. and no, i’m not the party pooper just because i don’t follow your game or act according to what you want. i respected everyone enough but when they don’t respect me, i’ll bring the karma rightaway.

wow at the amount of hatred you can actually write in a post on 2.39 am.


Author: Allison Nakamura

Tannya Aditya. Also known as Allison Nakamura of @DBSKCassIndo. Editor by weekdays, blogger on weekend. Quiescent misanthropist and sugoi motherfucker. 東方神起ファン. http://tohosync.flavors.me/


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