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the moment you dealt with too much death, it makes you understand that it really is only an inch away and it doesn’t frighten you anymore.

and sometimes i think that, i’ve dealt with too much loss and death they made me realize that possibly i was never meant to be happy. never.

i just hope my death will be less painful and not many people will remember it in sadness or anger. i hope people will remember me with smile and laughter. i hope i spent a well amount of time with everyone before i die because i don’t want to make anyone feel at loss when i’m finally not around.

i hope people would smile while remembering how i lived rather than cry while remembering how i died.

compilation of my tweets on may 15th, 2014. my grandmother passed away by noon. mother from dad’s wife. she’s been a strong woman who battled thyroid over the whole last year. may you rest in peace. you’ve been a wonderful lady and i’m glad i was once your granddaughter.